La Femme
single/
Date Of Birth ; 0808
Current age . 20something
Occupation ; Model/Writer
Location . Mostly LDN,
♥♥♥_About Me.
♥ Punk ♥ Reggae ♥ Hip-Hop ♥ Ska
♥ Hardcore ♥ Politics ♥ Culture
♥ Social Awareness ♥ Language
♥ Maths ♥ Chaos Theory ♥ Activism
♥ Permaculture ♥ Anthropology
♥ Blonde ♥Blue Eyed. Boring.
♥ Never posts pictures. Lazy. ♥ Dance
♥ Friends ♥ Travel ♥ Family ♥ Writing
♥ Reading
The Last...090610
thing you ate: A sausage in beans, Alan Pratridge stylee!! I'm ultra class.thing you downloaded: Nothing
song listened to: Empire State of Mind - Alicia Keyes, beautiful song, and recently I'm really missing New York. The time I spent there was very romantic. Carefree, smitten and in new York. But I feels I really need to point out, this has nothing at all to do with E. item you read: Silly comments on Facebook. I hate how it's like one big party when it really isn't.
person you talked to: Marie. Love you!
item you purchased: Vitamins, make up. Could I be anymore exciting?
text you recieved: "This Friday! Hope you can make it. Would be awesome to see your beautiful face, Lady P"
text you sent: "I wish I had a private jet. I would be there in an instant. Love you xxx"
person you kissed: Still no comment
thing you did before filling this out: Checked me facebook.
thing you thought about: It was actually when I was writing that thing about missing New York, I started thinking about well, New York, and E. He was so damaged, and I really hate using that word, but I shared some of the wickedest times with him.
Rewind
March 2009
April 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
June 2010
The Cast
Some of the cast in my life story! I'll add more in time. Please don't be offended I I didn't list you!!
Stussy: BFF. Notable for her deathly palour, extraordinary talent, and wicked sense of humour.
Leni: Another BFF. Easy Going, Sweet, Funny, and Mother of my God Daughter.
Sam: Best BFF. Used to be my neighbour. Obssessed with Skateboarding. Would trust with my Soul.
Chilli: Chilled out BFF who has a weird half American Accent and a mass of red hair.
Pebbles: Cute BFF, impeccable dress sense, absolute sweetheart, and mother to Zakai.
J: On/Off Boy Thing. Overly Charismatic and vomit inducingly funny.
Jacob: X-Boy. Overly Complicated friendship. But otherwise a hardworking guy dedicated to the Cause.
Jake: My little brother. Quiet. Unassuming. Adorable.
Masie: Little Sister. Cute. Smart and probably set out to be the family genius (cause I failed at it.)
Johnny: New BF. Well new compared to the others. One of my favourite mischief partners.
Marie: Has the patience of a saint. Is my long suffering point of constant contact as my agent.
E: X-Boy. Had an On/Off Relationship for about 4/5 years. Sweet but broken. We have a weird friendship.
Kei: Leni's husband. Rockstar. And one of my favourite housemates ever. We made the best sandwiches.
Aidan: The one and original x-boy. My high school sweetheart. Nothing weird. Just wicked friends.
Thanks,
9 January 2010,
♥ 20:21
A while ago, when I was in New York, I unexpectedly bumped into E's ex-girlfriend. Prior to this occasion we had only walked past each other. Her and E were not on good terms and he was hardly going to introduce me. Their split was very messy and it was obvious they still had very strong feelings for each other. I think with some people you can tell that their significance was big. This ex girl was E's 'love of his life', whether he chooses to recognise it or not. I know I certainly didn't etch into his life like she did. When E and I were together it was like little pockets of unreality. Just him and me, in our own little world. But when we hit back into reality we just didn't work. He was broken, and had so many issues. I sort of cut my ties with him a while back when I started to see a pattern in our relationship. Meet, fall into bed, talk about life and its meaning, then be seperated by the ocean. When we were apart he would either not call for months, and then call me every day for weeks. I'm gad he could trust me but listening to him mess up his life over and over again was very hard. He needed fixing, and I wasn't the one.
Last year, around my birthday, was the last time I saw him. He seemed really together, almost happy. We hung out for a bit, the flirting began and I just didn't feel the same. After four years of on and off relationship, it had changed. Mostly because I was in a normal relationship, with J. When he realised I wasn't avaiable he was really cool about it. But he kind of made a few comments to suggest he didn't think this was over yet because 'this will never end. When we meet it will happen all over again'.
I've gone totally off topic. My point was that a friend recently showed me a blogpost that E's ex had written about me. And I thought I'd share. It' really sweet.
"So I'm working, making a buck for me to visit the old liqor store and I glance up. Right in front of me is an amazonion princess who makes me feel small, ugly and like the runt of the litter. I realise it's 'his' fucking girlfriend. Lord, I try and keep my shit seperate from his, why can't he do the same? Anyhows, she ,aka [Niquee] starts talking to me sounding all coy and cute with her english accent. I try and brush her off. But she persists, and somehow we end getting along. I finish up at work and we go for a coffee and I realise, damn this girl is a hoot. Seriously, I spent so long wishing she would evaporate and then I find out she's damn awesom. She was really funny and smart, not like how I'd imagined at all. In the end I felt kinda impressed that he went out with her at all. So kids, the moral of this story is don't write people off. I'm glad I met her. It put some demons to rest."
3 January 2010,
♥ 02:34
Happy New Year Everyone! Starting 2010 posting with a Quizzical. Bit late to be starting it at 3am. Oh well.Where did you begin 2009?
Up North, in my home town, listening to 90s skate punk with my best friends. Like every year. We get mash up and watch the Sunrise.
Were you in school (anytime this year)?
No. I finished a while ago, but I am getting itchy feet and am seriously considering PHD in maths.
Did you have to go to the hospital?
A couple of times. As a duitfiul friend.
Did you have any encounters with the police?
Yes. Not directly though. I went to a few protests this year. And free parties always seem to court the coppers.
Did you go on holiday?
Sort of. It was all for work really. But I've been all over - France, North America, India...it's my favourite part of the job.
Did you move anywhere?
I was toying with the idea of moving to New York at the beginning of the year as it's good for work. Not to mention I love the place, the vibe is amazing. But it doesn't feel right at the moment. I'm pretty happy where I am.
Did you know anybody who got married?
Yeah. Some relatives and some friends.
Did you know anybody who passed away?
Yes. Sadly :(
Did you know anyone who got pregnant?
Er, feels a bit topical. Yes. But I promised I wouldn't say anything.
What shows did you go to?
I went to music shows, art shows, fashion shows...Shit loads. Everywhere. Seen so many wonderful artists, comedians, musicians, sartotialists, speakers...
Where do you live now?
Same place. London.
Describe your birthday:
My birthday falls during festival season. I have little choice but to go to festivals. Fortunately, though I <3 them. I remember being drunk, watching the stars at night and getting a phonecall when I was hammered from J. I split up with him by accident.
Did you get any tattoos or piercing?
No, it's not good for work. I lose jobs because of my old piercings.
What's the one thing you thought you would never do but did in 2009?
Walk a fashion show. I was sort of against the idea, morally. And also cause I'm bit short for doing shows.
What has/have been your favorite moment(s)?
Too many. I know that a lame answer but my brain isn't really functioning. And genuinely, I had some really amazing memories.
What's something you learned about yourself?
That it takes a lot to break my spirit.
What music will you remember 2009 by?
Hardcore, Reggae, Dub, Drum n bass....Rage against the Machine!
Who has been your best drinking buddy?
Johnny. Hands down. We will drink anything together. Tea. Beer. Cheap Cider. Expensive whisky.
Made new friends?
Yes. A whole bunch at the shows.
Kissed a new face?
Yeah.
How many people did you date?
Properly 1. Unproperly, more than 1.
Any regrets?
I thought I did but honestly, not really. I think things were sort of out of my control for a while, but I know I'm the author in my own story, and I choose not to regret.
What do you want to change in 2009?
To be calmer. I am permanently stressed.
Overall, how would you rate this year?
Professionally – 9. Personally – 7.
What would you change about 2008?
I would have taken more time to chill.
Made any life changes in 2009?
I kind of learnt my strengths and weaknesses. How far I could push myself. Knowing that made me put things into perspective. So my life perspective shifted a bit.
Change your hairstyle?
All the time. I'm currently working a messy jaw length bob.
Get a new job?
Every job is a new job.
Do you have a New Year's resolution?
To be a better sister. To figure out what to do in the years post modelling. I want to write more, but it's hard. Most people read model and assume you can't write about current affairs.
Did you do anything embarrassing?
Constantly. One of the worst was showing my boobs by accident during work. I don't mind nudity but it was the setting...it as all wrong!!
Get married or divorced?
No. I'm not bothered about either.
Get arrested?
No.
Did you get sick this year?
Yeah, twice.
Start a new hobby?
No, but that's a good idea. I'll get back to making clothes again. I haven't done that for ages!
Read a good book?
Loads. Too many to mention.
Are you happy to see 2009 go?
Yes, it was fucking exhausting. And towards the middle it went wrong in my personal life.
Been naughty or nice?
I'm nice. Except in bed ;)
What are you wishing for in 2010?
An end to war. Being listened to by the government. The closure of Guantanamo bay. The end of the nuclear weapons. The end of the West's interference in every other country but their own...loads of stuff.