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Date Of Birth ; 0808
Current age . 20something
Occupation ; Model/Writer
Location . Mostly LDN,
♥♥♥_About Me.
♥ Punk ♥ Reggae ♥ Hip-Hop ♥ Ska
♥ Hardcore ♥ Politics ♥ Culture
♥ Social Awareness ♥ Language
♥ Maths ♥ Chaos Theory ♥ Activism
♥ Permaculture ♥ Anthropology
♥ Blonde ♥Blue Eyed. Boring.
♥ Never posts pictures. Lazy. ♥ Dance
♥ Friends ♥ Travel ♥ Family ♥ Writing
♥ Reading
thing you downloaded: Nothing
song listened to: Empire State of Mind - Alicia Keyes, beautiful song, and recently I'm really missing New York. The time I spent there was very romantic. Carefree, smitten and in new York. But I feels I really need to point out, this has nothing at all to do with E. item you read: Silly comments on Facebook. I hate how it's like one big party when it really isn't.
person you talked to: Marie. Love you!
item you purchased: Vitamins, make up. Could I be anymore exciting?
text you recieved: "This Friday! Hope you can make it. Would be awesome to see your beautiful face, Lady P"
text you sent: "I wish I had a private jet. I would be there in an instant. Love you xxx"
person you kissed: Still no comment
thing you did before filling this out: Checked me facebook.
thing you thought about: It was actually when I was writing that thing about missing New York, I started thinking about well, New York, and E. He was so damaged, and I really hate using that word, but I shared some of the wickedest times with him.
Some of the cast in my life story! I'll add more in time. Please don't be offended I I didn't list you!!
Stussy: BFF. Notable for her deathly palour, extraordinary talent, and wicked sense of humour.
Leni: Another BFF. Easy Going, Sweet, Funny, and Mother of my God Daughter.
Sam: Best BFF. Used to be my neighbour. Obssessed with Skateboarding. Would trust with my Soul.
Chilli: Chilled out BFF who has a weird half American Accent and a mass of red hair.
Pebbles: Cute BFF, impeccable dress sense, absolute sweetheart, and mother to Zakai.
J: On/Off Boy Thing. Overly Charismatic and vomit inducingly funny.
Jacob: X-Boy. Overly Complicated friendship. But otherwise a hardworking guy dedicated to the Cause.
Jake: My little brother. Quiet. Unassuming. Adorable.
Masie: Little Sister. Cute. Smart and probably set out to be the family genius (cause I failed at it.)
Johnny: New BF. Well new compared to the others. One of my favourite mischief partners.
Marie: Has the patience of a saint. Is my long suffering point of constant contact as my agent.
E: X-Boy. Had an On/Off Relationship for about 4/5 years. Sweet but broken. We have a weird friendship.
Kei: Leni's husband. Rockstar. And one of my favourite housemates ever. We made the best sandwiches.
Aidan: The one and original x-boy. My high school sweetheart. Nothing weird. Just wicked friends.
I think with some people you can tell that their significance was big. This ex girl was E's 'love of his life', whether he chooses to recognise it or not. I know I certainly didn't etch into his life like she did. When E and I were together it was like little pockets of unreality. Just him and me, in our own little world. But when we hit back into reality we just didn't work. He was broken, and had so many issues. I sort of cut my ties with him a while back when I started to see a pattern in our relationship. Meet, fall into bed, talk about life and its meaning, then be seperated by the ocean. When we were apart he would either not call for months, and then call me every day for weeks. I'm gad he could trust me but listening to him mess up his life over and over again was very hard. He needed fixing, and I wasn't the one.
Last year, around my birthday, was the last time I saw him. He seemed really together, almost happy. We hung out for a bit, the flirting began and I just didn't feel the same. After four years of on and off relationship, it had changed. Mostly because I was in a normal relationship, with J. When he realised I wasn't avaiable he was really cool about it. But he kind of made a few comments to suggest he didn't think this was over yet because 'this will never end. When we meet it will happen all over again'.
I've gone totally off topic. My point was that a friend recently showed me a blogpost that E's ex had written about me. And I thought I'd share. It' really sweet.
"So I'm working, making a buck for me to visit the old liqor store and I glance up. Right in front of me is an amazonion princess who makes me feel small, ugly and like the runt of the litter. I realise it's 'his' fucking girlfriend. Lord, I try and keep my shit seperate from his, why can't he do the same? Anyhows, she ,aka [Niquee] starts talking to me sounding all coy and cute with her english accent. I try and brush her off. But she persists, and somehow we end getting along. I finish up at work and we go for a coffee and I realise, damn this girl is a hoot. Seriously, I spent so long wishing she would evaporate and then I find out she's damn awesom. She was really funny and smart, not like how I'd imagined at all. In the end I felt kinda impressed that he went out with her at all. So kids, the moral of this story is don't write people off. I'm glad I met her. It put some demons to rest."